When I'm Gone...

It’s not the time to send me flowers.

I can’t smell them anymore.

It’s not the time to write me letters.

I can’t answer them any more.

It’s not the time to give me cards.

I can’t read them anymore.

It’s not the time to say sorry.

I can’t appreciate them anymore.

It’s not the time to say praises.

I don’t need them anymore.

It’s not the time to say I love you.

I can’t feel them anymore.

It’s only the time to be silent.

And to pray, pray, pray.

And perhaps the time to shed.

A few tears, as to me you say goodbye.

Horrible day! Last day of February.

February 28, 2011

I woke up early in the morning (4:26 AM) because of what I’ve heard, a bark of a dog.
It really disturbs me. And after a few hours (6:45 AM), I was about to go outside and check if what's wrong outside, there I found Quima, our dog (I used "our" because he's a good dog to me), barking and barking and barking, I thought that he's been in the backyard for the whole night. I understand why he barks, imagine, staying in the roofless and muddy backyard for the whole night.

When I am about to get Quima out of the backyard, to help him out, a woman foreigner neighborhood approached and asked me, "Is that your dog?", and I answered excitedly, "YES!" and then she said, "he's been barking for the whole night and it disturbs our sleep. Can you do something for that?" and I ask for forgiveness, "SORRY" ... What a "good" (bad) morning to me. Well, the important thing, I was able to save Quima from a roofless and muddy place (which he can't lie down to sleep)... He got red and stressfull eyes. Poor dog... :-(

Quima :)

After an hour, I am ready to go to work, I checked first the lovebirds outside the house and shocked of what I saw... oh no! I found two lovebirds dead! Oh my! The yellow and the blue one... my favorite and only yellow inside the cage... :-( I was so shocked and sad, very sad! And I have no idea why they die...


Indeed, everything in this world is NOT permanent. Now, I realized that you can apply the "love and let go" thing also in the animals.

If You Forget Me by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

The day you said Hello... ♥



… Indeed, it all started with one HELLO. I never expected how you change my simple life… with just a simple smile of you. Back then, everything is NORMAL but now it’s kinda different… No matter how hard I tried to get you out off my mind but I can’t manage not to think of you… wow… one way of saying that you really captured my young heart and my whole being… what will I do now?! Forget you?! But forgetting you is the hardest thing I could ever do… or shall I say, if you have time... could you please love me the way I do?!.. I can’t promise anything but my purest, deepest love… I will give it to you as I never give it to anyone yet… You have been my heart’s beat… I’m so stuck on you… Can’t rid you out my thoughts all day through… I wish I could think of something else but you have occupied all my brain cells…. What are you? Can you please tell me? Why must I be so attracted to you like this?



Why I can’t just forget you when everything that I could think of is you… and me… together… forever…

… Have you ever felt the same way too?! Or only me who keeps on dreaming’? I know I have to move on… get rid of all this nonsense emotions. I know, that it will lead me to nothing… but

I cannot do it overnight… So please do cooperate… Stop being gentle, kind, and caring… as if you really care… I know that you are just being friendly, and you cannot blame me of putting meaning in everything… I am just human… a girl… a woman who does not have a wooden heart…  Who loves you for real… But certainly wonders if you feel the same… do you? I’m getting curious… Do you see me?

--by combined Anonymous